I've Been Found Wanting

it's her that makes me feel like a child
lost in the seasoned innocence that she
and only she
seems to possess in those dark brown eyes

and my history scares her away
when all I want is to remove myself
get as far away
from the habits of my past
as is possible

she's inside my head
I don't want to stop
having firsts with her
I want her to know

everything

and I want her everything in return
because I'm going insane
staring at the clock
refreshing every five minutes
and wondering why I haven't heard from her

Strip

Stop with the fake emotions
Show me your truths and your fears

Because I haven't seen you smile
In too many years

Your falsities and the lies you told
Have grown to get so old

Oh, won't you help me to understand it all
Oh, won't you be so bold

And did you know that we would just be friends
Was all this time just a means to an end
Did you know that we would just be friends
Was all this time just a means to an end

Let down your guard
(Drop all the pretenses)
Don't make it so hard
(Drop all your defenses now)

Justified

Can emotion and circumstance be justified?
A child who depletes its mother for sustenance
Bleating incessantly when its desires have not been fulfilled


Who judges right or wrong in an undefined situation?
A wild cat, in fields of golden grass
Feasts on the carcass of the helpless antelope
Its herd only so lucky that it was not quick enough
To anticipate Death


What speaks in favor of truth, when truth is relative?
A storm torments a coastal village
Making truants of middle-class families
Who recycle to better the environment
Their environment

Do What You Want

And when this bottle of solitude
Is dead in my hand
and on fire in my mouth

Your steady gaze still won't calm a thing
It makes me sad
Yeah, it makes me shout

Affections run together like watercolors
All muddled into browns
And indifferent greys

And you won't make it known that you're more scared than I
You won't make a sound
With the words you choose to say

You do what you want
But don't you want me?
My chances are shot
But you've made me feel...

For the first time
In what seems like years
I care about something
Care to the brink of tears
But what could I know about you
With all your closed doors
All the feeling I thought you had
Seems to seep through the floorboards
Seeps through the floorboards

No Port In A Storm

We set sail
And the storm cometh without fail
Raise the sail
And catch the gale

Force wind
Take me where you will
Rescind
Ego-trap my will

Away
Far away
Push it all away
Away

Ocean swells
Accelerate me further
Over Her
Cause a switch, cause a stir

Tide thrust
Take me where you will
Fierce gust
Ego-trap my will

Away
Far away
Push it all away
Away

Like Constellations

Lines and sparks play
Out a scene in
Constellations

She and I on fire
Intrinsically tied like
Constellations

But so far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

I hear her voice
In my ear
But she's not here

I feel her skin
I wish so bad
That she was near

In everything I see her face
Staring back at me
The silence and the distance
And all that shouldn't be

Lines and sparks play
Out a scene in
Constellations

She and I on fire
Intrinsically tied like
Constellations

But so far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

Lover

I don't want to know you
Like I know my brother
...I just want to be your lover

I don't necessarily want
To learn your favorite color
...I just want to be your lover

So let that lady loose
Oh, drop that 100 proof
Just use me as your bottle
Yeah, I promise you'll get drunk
Don't lock yourself away
With the aching and the pain
Oh, Use me as your punching bag
You won't be had

But I'll have you some day

I don't want to hold you
Like I hold my mother
...I just want to be your lover

I don't want to hear about
This, that or the other
...I just want to be your lover

So let that lady loose
Oh, drop that 100 proof
Just use me as your bottle
Yeah, I promise you'll get drunk
Don't lock yourself away
With the aching and the pain
Oh, use me as your punching bag

So let that lady loose
Oh, drop the 100 proof
Just use me as your bottle
Yeah, I promise you'll get drunk
Don't lock yourself away
With the aching and the pain
Oh, use me as your punching bag
You won't be had

But I'll have you some day