I've Been Found Wanting

it's her that makes me feel like a child
lost in the seasoned innocence that she
and only she
seems to possess in those dark brown eyes

and my history scares her away
when all I want is to remove myself
get as far away
from the habits of my past
as is possible

she's inside my head
I don't want to stop
having firsts with her
I want her to know

everything

and I want her everything in return
because I'm going insane
staring at the clock
refreshing every five minutes
and wondering why I haven't heard from her